HOW DID I GET HERE

Ahh for those lazy crazy days of summer.  Laying in the grass as an eight year old.  Dreaming and dreaming.  Preparing in a child's way of what my future was going to be.  Wanted to be a policeman.  Sounded like a great future.  Always played cops and robbers with the kids in the community.  Those shining toy guns and badges.  Got to 11 years old...maybe just maybe that was not my goal now.  Electronics became an attention.  Transistor  radio broke....soldering  gun and wire.  New goal now.  All the electronic magazines I could find and read and read.  But when I was 15 a different direction. While in a Sunday School classroom in my home Church in Hoyt...I felt the call of God.  The song "I will go where you want me to go dear Lord, over mountain or land or sea. I say what you want me to say dear Lord. I'll be what you want me to be."  The call of God to do his work.  Off to Bible School with the direction of doing Ministry.  Became an assistant Pastor and married.  Pastored the finest churches and greatest people in Summerside, P.E.I, Doaktown, N.B., Harvey Station, N.B., Honeydale, N.B. and West Old Town, Maine.  Had church growth and also building projects in each. Each turn had success in it with the praise given to God.  But then a sudden speed bump in life's road.  Ministry failure that brought a crashing effect to all involved.  Divorce and the tragic of failure.  This is not what I dreamed of as a teenager.  Depressed , I turned to addictive behaviour.  The screen play of life had changed.  Did not know how to react.  Thinking that I lost to God's plan I wandered and sank in my despair.  Nothing worse than an event like this.  Wandering with no sense of purpose and direction.  Each night I would lay my head on my pillow and wonder if God even cared.  But each night I could feel His Arms around me.   One of the blessing of Detroit was that I worked for a great company and had worked my way up to 15 out of 130 drivers.  And met this wonderful woman of who I married.  Then life came to a stand still three years ago when I was told I had cancer.  God has his hand still in the mix of life.  Before going into chem for my CLL I found out I had kidney cancer that was ready to bust.  God intervened.  It was a very painful time for that year.  Then I was told, you should go home to be with your family as you don't have much longer to live.  Shocked.  This was not in the script in my thoughts and plans of life.  A year and half ago, we packed and moved back to Hoyt, N.B.  Why am I saying all of this.  I came back to where I had begun the dream of life.

I read in the Bible about a man named Saul who was doing what he thought was his dream of life.  Then he got stuck down on a road and became blind.  Series of events happened that he became one of the greatest apostles of Christ.  "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content."  Philippians 4:1.