WEEDS

After moving home last year, Sharon and I began to help Dad with planting.  Dad loves his flower gardens and planting flowers ... to many in my opinion.  One of the things we have to do is weed.  Not being a gardner...I found out that after weeding..I would come back a few weeks later and find weeds growing over again.  Became very frustrated and asked why do these weeds come back.  My Dad informed me that you have to pull the weed out way back to its root.  Some of these roots are long and go forever.  But until you pull out the roots, the weed grows back.  Mulching and control substance for weeds helps control this from happening.

Mark 4 speaks of soil and the preparation of production of our person.  You see..our heart is the garden of our person.  How we nuture and take care of the garden is what brings forth the fruit..  Hebrews 12:15 speaks of the root of bitterness.  It that root out for proper maturity and growth of our person.

What brought this on in my mind...was at a few weeks ago..I had a God moment.  I was reflecting on my life for the last few decades and seeing how that I thought I had conquered things in my flesh but they would arise again after time.  I have been following the gentleman that has been running in a campagin for Mayor of New York City.  It had  been found that two years ago, he had be sexting (new generation term) to some women when he was a Senator.    Exposed, he said he had learned his lesson and would never happen again.  BUT just a few months ago, it was exposed that he had been doing it again.  A commentator on the Dr. Drew progam on ..made a statement that tiggered this God moment.  Unless he realizes he is has a sex addiction and gets help .... he will do it over and over again.

I remember from teenage years and up....I would have my issues.  Go to Church and God would deal with me and after hours of talking to Him and having a Holy Ghost visitation. ... I would feel I will never be tempted again and I have conquered it.   But two months later...the issue would come back and start all over again.  WHY I would ask myself.  From 42 to 50...the addiction would be a constant issue in my life.  When I felt I had conquered it...it would come back and occur over and over.  I know the religious world will not like this statement but and I had it done to me.  We need to pray the demon out and etc.  That worked for a season but the addiction came back.  I had the weeds in my life but was only pulling what was on the surface but failed to pull the root out.  I had to go back to the root of why this was occuring and why it started.  I know that we can say it is sin and it is sin...but why do people do what they do.  See...I believe there is good in everyone.  People do things for a reason.  And finding out the reason is my purpose now in life for why we do things .

There are many addictions we see in people's lives.  People judge the person and put them in a box of isolation.  Why is the prostitute on the street corner, why is an individual having an affair, why does a man take and kill a person ( the value of life is no longer respected), why does someone become addicted to drugs, gambling, alcohol, sex, food and the list goes on.  We can judge the present moment but do we go back and see why.  Often no self esteem, rejection in childhood, no parent love shown, etc contributes.  So the moment rush and thrill would give me a false allusion of what I need.  Why does a man cheat on his wife...he thinks the grass is greener on the other side.  Society has shown the prefect relationship is nothing but appeal and laughter.  Nothing about relationship struggles and working through them is advised. 

So... I have been looking over my life and seeing why I had this addiction.  I had to go back to the root and start to pull it out.  Start respecting myself and seeing that I was a better person than have this addiction control me. I was always living for the moment  My selfishness had caused me to hurt my family members and individuals that loved me. .   It is a constant nuturing of onesself with love and respect of one's person. 

Empathy and compassion goes out to all that deal with the weeds in life.  I do not judge behaviour...but pray in compassion and willing to reach in love to those in this situation.  Jesus loves the individual...doesn't condone the sin. If you are struggling...I stand here and say ... there is someone who cares.  You are special to us and will do anything to help you.

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